Valentine's Day and Disappointments

I think this post will be a rather long post.

4 major activities happened to me in this day.
The special day that every couple celebrates as a happy time and that every single dreads..or I'm just speaking for myself.
Whoever created Valentine's day should be shot.
What's the purpose of creating a special day to celebrate love and leave out the singles?
I might sound bitter but I am not.
It's just that I find this day a very commercialised day.
Why can't everyday be valentine's day?
LOL.

Well first of all was leader's meeting in which I felt the word I could draw from it was to be relentless in the pursuit of faith and of God.
How Mother Theresa was so relentless in her pursuit of the calling of God even though she did not hear from him.
The words 'I refuse Him nothing' is such strong words that I don't even know whether I can bear the full fledge meaning of those words that she said.
It feels so heavy, yet I know that at the end of the day, that's what I want.

Then there was mentoring session with Gordon which I discovered a lot of things about myself.

Then sharing of BGR from Pastor Mal and how he met Aunty Uma.
Very interesting and a lot of Christian principles on dating and relationships.
I hope it touched the youth and that they will take it to heart when it comes to relationships.

Then there was hanging out for valentine's with the older youths (Amy,Sarah,Julian,ZiJie,Aaron,ZheXian)
Aaron left after 6. But a few of us continued on and had dinner and played left 4 dead. Awesome!
And then looking at a ferrero rocher bouquet (99 ferreros in a flower bouquet like arrangement) which the florist charged like RM450!!!
Hahaha..I was like I think it's so possible to make it yourself for maybe half or 1/4 of the price.
But a lot of effort la.
Maybe I should save that idea for next time!:P


Anyway, that was just my first part of the blog.
My disappointments vary.
I am very disappointed with certain types of people.
I'm not judging them but just pretty much annoyed.
I find it annoying when people state complaints and complaint and say we're not doing things right, not rekindling the passion, not focusing on the right things BUT do not offer to be responsible or to take charge to assist/contribute in correcting the situations.

Long story short, I despise people who give complains with no suggestions for improvements.
People who complain and never take action to be involved in helping to contribute to the continuous improvement of the situation.
Not only in church but also in work places.
To this kind of people, I can only shake my head.
Sometimes to take it into account is one thing, but I personally believe this kind of things are a waste of my time.
What's the point of pointing out a flaw in the person but no providing any suggestions to help the person overcome the flaw?
It's not constructive at all!
You wanna make complains do so please, BUT give a suggestion as to how we can improve.
I'm quite sick of this literally.

And then the fact that somehow I find so many guys shying away from leadership or commitments to church ministries or in things that can help them grow.
Personally saying that, I put myself on a position where I know I will therefore be judged or tested in saying what I say.
Sometimes I personally feel that I am not fit to lead.
Nor do I feel like leading.
But I personally believe that leading and serving in the ministry is not about what you FEEL.

You say you want to be passionate about something, but all you do is sit down there and expect it to drop from the sky.
You say you that things in church are not good, but you do not want to take part into being part of the solution to improve.
And to the group of people who are trying to improve the situation, you just give discouragement rather than encouragement.
Trying to give a more spiritual input than a practical input.
You say you want to be closer to Him, but you do not even take any initiative to read the bible, pray and seek out help.

* This is not meant for any specific people. Just my opinion.

What is this?!?!
Do you know that if you want something, you have to go and get it?
Nothing comes easy.
If you do not WORK for it, you will NEVER appreciate it.
You reap what you sow.
God never said you reap what you never sow.
Yes, God will still provide for you.
God will still help you.
But he can never help you if you don't help yourself.
Get out of your comfort zones!
Step it up!!

God has called us to be more than conquerors in Him!!
Not complacent, mumbling and complaining people!

It's a burning desire to see the GUYS in the youth take up leadership.
To see the YOUTH themselves take up leadership and take ownership of their own ministry.

I just pray that God will grant me the patience.
I think personally what I have wrote are my personal frustrations and thoughts on things that are happening.
And I believe most leaders also feel this way.

God, grant me the patience and the faith to continue trusting in You.
Pray for forgiveness of any of my sins and if any of my writings have offended anyone.
Pray that more leaders will continue to rise up from amongst the youth.
God, move us all to higher levels with you!

Amen.