Post Modernism

Today during the sermon, my pastor talked about post-modern people.

And I started to wonder whether I am one of them...to a scary extent, I am sorta post modernised.

It is a constant battle to try and accept the words from the Bible as an absolute truth.

My mind constantly wonders why things have to be so? And why at times the Bible seems to be very judgemental or sort of like a rule book to keep us in check.

Maybe that's just my post modern side speaking. Internally, I do believe that the Bible IS the absolute truth. But believing is one thing and accepting it is another.

Well I just have issues to accept the absolute truths at times, but I pray that by God's grace my heart will learn to accept them.

Talking bout that, even when asked to share the gospel / testimony with other people who are non-believers, most of the times I feel inferior or unworthy to do so.

I don't want to be a hypocrite myself. Simply put.

I don't know if anyone else faces this problem, but I do and I don't really like it as it hinders me from sharing something good with my friends or loved ones...

Oh well, this is another one of the struggles in my life...:S

'The spirit and the flesh are always in conflict with each other..what the spirit wants the flesh doesn't, and what the flesh wants the spirit doesn't..'

Weighty Issues

It's odd being an engineer.

An overly big one in fact. I have self esteem issues which I don't even realize at times.

Maybe it's the fact that I've always been big and being called 'big', 'fat', 'fatty' or whatever has a negative connotation to it with my weight / size.

Hence the fact that I understand the times when people get called fat or whatsoever weighty calling.

I guess nobody is perfect and everybody has their own issues or imperfections. But what puzzles me is that fat people get picked on the most. Overly thin people never get that 'look' from people that they are overly thin. Only fat people do.

Fat people get a certain judgemental look each time people look at them. That's what I've observed so far.

The world craves for perfection so much so that any imperfection is despised and looked down upon.

Fat people are still people. Thin people are still people.

Personally speaking, it's not fun when people make statements about my weighty issues.

I guess it's time for me to shed some weight anyway, for my own personal reasons. I wish I didn't have to conform to what society wants.

It's sickening.

This is my first struggle in life.

'It is always better to admit ones weaknesses / inadequacies instead of ignoring them'

A new beginning

A new blog begins.

Decided to post some of my thoughts, struggles and aims along the way as a freshie young adult.

When life is not all as it seems to be.

Will try to post more frequently and of more useful stuff to ponder on than my previous emo blog. Lol.

:)

Might decide to write on certain fitness / weight loss struggles that I go through as well.

It's time to get fit ...I think that's the umpteenth time I told myself that..but we'll see how it goes.

'A journey of a thousand miles begins with the first step..'