And so I thought.

Last night's chat keeps on replaying in my mind.
I have more questions than I have answers.
As an engineer, it means that there's no solution.

I'm bumped out.
Crossroads again.

This has got to be the worst week of my life so far.
Freaking 2 days is all it took to screw up my week.

I have no mood to freaking work.
KPI has dipped to zero.
I'm so bloody distracted I don't know anything anymore.

What's real and what's not.

All I can do is let out a heavy sigh..one full of disappointment.
The type that even when it comes out, it feels like a relief but hasn't fully relieved it.

But despite all the disappointments, I have decided.
I have decided that the only way to solve all this is up to me.
I decided to wait and see what time reveals.
The pursuit continues.

And it is impossible to have no expectations.

The plunge

I just hope for grace amongst the midst of turmoil.
The love in midst of wrong doings.
Acceptance in the midst of rejection.

Is that too much to ask for?

Sacrifices have to be made.
So it all begins now..
The tough choices, wrong or right.

Thus begins the plunge....

Will anyone be there to catch me when I fall?

We only get one chance in life to do things.
Chances only come once.

And only once.
It's time to leap.=)
And possibly drop in the abyss lol or not la..

Being a project leader sure is tough.
Decisions to be made.
Plans to be written out.

It's gonna be a hectic 3-4 weeks ahead...or maybe months.
But I think seeing you is still the highlight of my weeks.=)

Woohoo!

Pondering thoughts and farewell to a friend.

Work is utterly tiring.
With enquiries to send out to contractors and tender or RFQ preparations, work sure is tough.

Life feels like it's in a stagnant moment.
Like everything is just swirling around and I'm just stuck in time.

It's work, meet up, play, sleep, eat.
Nothing much other than that on the normal weekdays.

Am I losing my momentum?
My life seems just to be stagnating.

As hard as it may be, I have decided that sometimes the best thing to do is just to trust in Him.
Instead of rebelling and trying to go my own way.
Sure it's a hard process...I am facing the hardship now.
All I can do is have faith that things will work out.
That life will seem more meaningful.
That purpose will be clearer with Him guiding me by my hand.

Anyhow, the girl whom I have started to treat pretty much like a little sister is finally leaving for Aussie land.

I bid you a good journey there and may you have fun and enjoy the years of uni life before coming back or becoming the slave of the work force.
It's been really good knowing you and knowing that I have a person I can call on anytime of the day.

:)

I look back 4 years ago, and the position was reversed. I was leaving, and yet after 2 years being gone we still remained close friends.
I hope the same happens when you go over for the next 3 years.
Thanks for the lessons and guidance on womenly stuff..lol.

I will miss you for sure.

:)

Emotional post.

And so there I was.
Standing and watching from a distance.
Not being able to go near enough to her.

As much as I was happy to see her, it also hurt.
I really don't know anything anymore.
Except, well, to persevere.
Have faith that things will work out.
And just smile while keeping it all in.

And even if they don't, I still have a friend I hope.
Though it hurts like mad...