Lack of Emotion

I think I am seriously having some problems with myself.
Like seriously.

Was just thinking if I'd be those kind of mushy, sweet talking etc. kind of boyfriend..when I get a girlfriend..
And my conclusion is that I can't SEE myself doing that.
I don't see myself as those mushy guys who can openly declare their emotions!
It's like even the thought of it makes me feel uncomfortable..what more if I actually do it.

I think I perceive myself as the type of boyfriend who doesn't show emotions much, at least publicly la.
I'll most probably be the type that gives very practical gifts / solutions or very practical things instead of soft toys etc. Depending tho.
Even my closest girl friend, Tsuen, mentions that she can't picture me as someone who flirts.
She says that I'm the type of guy who if I like a girl, I'll just go up to tell her I like her.
Very true.
Somehow, I just pray that the person I end up with is someone who can tolerate my practicalisme lol or who is someone practical herself.

That'd be cool.

I guess I'm just not used to showing emotions publicly.
I am a shy person after all..like really!
Sometimes I get so shy with new people that they think I'm cocky.
Omg.
Sends out wrong first impressions you know?

Well, just writing nonsense stuff here which don't really make sense.
It's just thoughts of mine.
Wish I could be a socialite / or a social monster!
But I don't know, I sorta find it difficult to make conversations with people, what more hold conversations with them...
Maybe I should pick up some conversational classes. If they ever have such a class.

Ok. I'm off to bed before I start rambling nonsense.
Night, world.....!