Bootcamp and Orang Asli

It was a real interesting week.
To start off with Bootcamp and to end it with Orang Asli mission trip.
All physical tasks and challenges which I think have made me slightly fitter...lol.

Boot camp was on 3 days and consisted of 1 hour each session of really intense exercises but very fun at the end..I feel like I'm missing it already!

Had to get up at 5 am on those 3 days and exercise, followed by work and by the time I get home I'm like a dead fish..
I feel fitter though. LOL.
I might just decide to join the bootcamp if it actually comes to Malaysia.
:)

Orang asli mission was quite fun.
But challenging none the less..having to climb up hill on muddy terrain with the fear of slipping all the way down...interesting!
I slipped 6 times. Hahaha..was just starting to get used to it.
Cleared up the tree's / plants/leaves to make way for a new farmland.

Throughout these 2 events, the only thing that was in my head was why did I get myself into all this??

I still don't know why but I have a feeling I'll be asking that same question during my KK climb..

Recently, been bit stoned.
At work and all.

I guess it could be a side effect of waking up too early lol.

Anyhow, just thought of keeping this events of mine for my own memories. LOL.

KK trip in 2 weeks time. omg.

I feel so not ready....still.

And that my soul knows very well..

I seem to forget.
And forget the most important things in life.

Simply put: God loves me..and He loves me very much.
And that my soul knows that VERY well.

Help me Lord.
Remind me of Your great love for me.
And help me to live a life that is pleasing to Your sight.

That's all I ask for Lord.
Thank you.

Amen!

People

Recently I've been feeling bit isolated.
Sorta like going through depression.
I hope it's not.

But I was just wondering whyI seem to have a hard time connecting with people.
What is keeping me back from getting to know people without any expectations?

I can't seem to connect with people at times and it gets depressing.
Work doesn't seem to get any better with all the things I have to finish.

I haven't even started training for my KK trip.
I think I'm so going to kaput..

Aih..random ramblings la.
I just feel that recently I've been very isolated.
I can't seem to reach out to people..
There's this freaking barrier which I just want to break down.

I wish I didn't have to feel this way.
And I wish I had more efficient social and communication skills.

I guess there just is something wrong with me....

Of weekends and meaningful moments

Purify my heart,
Cleanse me from within
And make me holy

Purify my heart
Cleanse me from my sins
Deep within

Refiner's fire,
My heart's one desire
Is to be holy

Set apart for You, Lord
I choose to be holy,
Set apart for You, my Master
Ready to do Your will

- Refiner's fire by I don't know who...-

My weekend was full of hecticness and reflection amidst the hecticness.
I finally got my E71!:)
Loving the phone but need to ensure I don't idolize it..lest it be taken away from me again!

After mentoring session, I realised that I need to be purified.
That at the end of the day, I need to realise the sovereignity of Him in my life.
It's super hard for me to surrender my WHOLE self...but I want to.
I love the song that I put up in the starting of this post.
It's like a reminder and a reflection of what I want for myself this year.

My meaningful moment happened this morning during my church's first service.
The moment when I knew that I could worship Him despite of anything.
That refining is a process which takes time.
And at the end of the day I just want to praise and worship Him and OBEY.

Anyway, had a hectic weekend.
Was out the whole of Saturday and Sunday.
I'm like so tired now I can just fall on my bed and knock out till tomorrow.

Saturday was with mentoring, meeting, preparation for games, games, dinner and left 4 dead!
Sunday was 1st and 2nd services at church, lunch, left 4 dead, kite flying, dinner, home.
I'm really dead tired.

So much for kite flying.
I sacrificed my 2 hr nap on a Sunday evening..(raining heavily mind you) for a trip to desa park city thinking that I could fly a kite, but ended up raining heavily.
We spent our time at secret recipe indulging in sinful things such as CAKE.
LOL.

Left 4 dead is really cool!
In the sense that it makes you really get involved in the game..I have to admit I'm pretty addicted to it. LOL:)
But trying to keep it under control.

I think serving in the youth ministry is one of the most fulfilling and most exciting things I have ever chosen to do.
It's really great to see the youth bond together, grow together and experiencing God together.
Of course there are downsides too, but I just remind myself that everyone is human and no one is perfect.
Most of life is entirely up to the individual.
I can say this and that but it really depends on the person.

I just don't feel like going back to work.
:S
I won't be having a weekend next week thanks to the workshop that I have to attend.
And Monday is going to be a working day (it's supposed to be a public holiday) for me.
I guess there's not much point saying so much.
I think I'll just embrace it as a time to really get to know more of my colleagues at work!:)

Oh well...
I'm extremely tired now.
Gonna crash on my bed and sleep.
Till next time!